i dont quite understand it...no matter how much a i love someone, and know they love me, i still cannot seem to be with them. I'll explain.

on saturday i went to a fair with some friends and met the most amazing woman ever...to say that i was love struck would be to cheapen what i felt. over the next twenty four hours our feelings for each other began to excalate exponentially: saturday night we talked till seven in the morning, held each other, and made how we felt very plain. but now she is with another and....i dont know what to do. I know she likes me but...

the powers seem to never want me to have that which i desire most: love.

i know...i know...it's about time. i'm sure my "multitude" of fans are rivetted...anyway read it or not i don't think it matters anymore....

It's my birthday and you know what I'm going to be doing? WORKING!!!! What the bloody fuck?!?! They are actually making me go to work on MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! *shoots random person and sighs* oh well....

Anyhow, as for my rant from yesterday I wasn't referring to any of my friends on here; none the less, was darling enough to offer to draw me something to cheer me up ^_^ much huggles to shiny-chan!

So happy 21st birthday to me! Now where's that pub!

Well...tomorrow is my birthday...and already I'm pissed. First off, I have to work on my birthday; second, everyone I know either doesn't give a shit that it's my birthday tomorrow or they have plans for this weekend which is when I was going to celebrate. But you know what? Fuck them, I'm going to go buy me a pipe and smoke some chocolate flavored tobacco and look straight pimpin' while I do it! SO HA!!!

Who's coming with me? Alright folks, here's the deal: I turn 21 on the 28th of this month! Everyone knows what that means!!! I'm going to a pub and getting drunk off my ass!!!!
But on a more serious note, I would appreciate it if presents were given ^_^

Cal: Not too subtle hint...

Quiet you! Anyhow...I would love it if everyone wished me a happy birthday in some very artistic manner, but I won't be mad if no one does! I love you all anyhow hihi ^_^ At the very least wish me a happy b-day!

Cal: But what he really wants is some stuff.

*throws frying pan at Cal's head* I SAID QUIET!!!!

Cal: *ducks* Your aim still sucks!!

*growls* Anyhow...yeah, turning 21 and would love presents to help heal the wound of getting another year older please!

I love you all!!